run away with me

i have that tune over and over in my head for sometime now. "run away with me" taken from the unauthorized biography of samantha brown. is there any particular reason for that tune to be stuck in my head. at first, no, but now... well i dunno.

if denial is a state of mind, and i'm certainly in denial right now. you know when you're at the fork on the road, thinking to take left or right. i know i should take right. it's the one that i drew up in my map, and it's my frickin' five year plan for god sake!!! but something on the left is intriguing. questioning... made me wonder can i take the left also? what will happen if i do?? would this be the road less taken that i've always longed for??

i still don't know. the left looked tempting at the moment. but the right is my dream. it's all fill with me and me and me. yes, it's a lonely road on the right. but it's the 'happy' road as i know it. but if i swerved left, i never know. i'm not even sure at the moment. it's all vague.

i should just taken my own advice i guess... take my time and enjoy the moment. if it'll pass, it'll pass... if the time comes, i'll know which road i will take. it might be the road less taken, it might be not. i might meet a fellow traveler there, who is as weird as i am, or as passionate as i am, or a simple fact that he can handle my weirdness and make him a companion in this journey.

that's the beauty of life i guess... you never know what will come next. and every choices is connected to the next.

for the moment, i just want to sing 'run away with me' on top of my lungs and let my feelings out. for this fork on the road... i don't know, i guess i'll just sit here and enjoy the view for a while, and make a decision with a clean sober head.