give 'em hell

my new jam... 'the fighter' by gym class heroes.  i never care much for this bunch, i mean, their first song that i remember from them was 'clothes off'.  not exactly my cup of tea.  but when i heard this song for the first time in E!, they were premiering the video.  the lyrics just made me stand 10 feet tall.  especially the hook by ryan tedder... the man cannot sing jack shit live (have you seen him live lately... terrible) but he sure can write lyrics :p

the whole song is like a wake up call, to just live on.  it's a perfect song to jog to.  a perfect goodbye song for patrick :p and also the perfect song to catch on my dream.  i mean, not saying what i got right now is not enough, it is more than enough.  but it was only part one of the dream, i still have that yellow brick road that i laid out so carefully.  i still have to achieve that goal.  that one is kinda selfish, it was for me and myself only.  but i hope, truly hope, you would be there for me nonetheless.  and i hope we can reach the goal together :)

in the meantime, imma sing 'the fighter' and fight on!!!

*half the population just waiting to see me fail, yeah right you're better off trying to freeze hell...until the referee rings the bell, until both of your eyes start to swell, until the crowd goes home what we're gonna do y'all??? give 'em hell!!!*

questions

would it annoy you
if i told you that i miss you constantly
would it scare you
if i told you that i need you here with me

would i took the fun out of it
if i told you you're always on my mind
would i stop being interesting
if i told you you're the only one that i want

would i stop being special
if i told you i'll be faithful
would my words become meaningless
if i dedicate them to you

would i become dull
if i told you that i love you
would it freak you out
if i told you that i want you for life

fragile

i should come with a warning
'approach with caution'
i know i said i'm an open book
that doesn't make me simple though

i am damaged
held by tapes and thread
still trying to stand
on the outside it looked fine
once you get to the inside, you know how damaged i am

i hope you can stay
handle my antics
be my one and only

and i really really really care, and i really really really want you, and i think i'm kinda scared, 'cause i don't want to loose you, if you're really really really there, then maybe you could hang through, i hope you'd understand, it's nothing to you

tlc 'damaged' 

space

i opened up and let you in
into this twisted world that i live
that was just a preview for what's to come
for i am layers of complications

can we get pass this, i hope so
i let myself vulnerable yet one more time
i am a girl when i'm with you
i'm defenseless when it comes to you

so here we are, in my twisted world
i know you're confused
i know you're adjusting
but i hope you're not upset

so right now
i'm letting you be
i'm giving you space
my world takes a while to adjust to
but i hope you stay
i hope you'll cope
i hope you're it

a tale of the oz

hey,

come here

sit by me

let me tell you of an ongoing fairy tale

on how a wicked witch became a princess

come, sit by me

let me tell you about how she started

alone in the land of oz

you ask why she became wicked?

ow it's just another age-old tale

she was searching for perfection

yet perfection never came

then the witch met a god

who promised her a spot on mount olympus

who promised her she'd become a goddess

but aphrodite told her the truth

she was just a mere mortal

she can dress pretty, and feel like a goddess

but she will never become one

cast off from olympus

she was back in the land of oz

she promised herself never to ask for more

for the land of oz was a perfect place for her

she embraced the solitude

for it was the perfect scene for her

she started to accept

that was her perfection

don't think she never invited to other worlds

she had been invited, many times

but the scene in olympus scarred her

she decided

she preferred the land of oz

the solitude was comforting

then lo and behold

a raggedly handsome traveler dropped by

he said he was from a faraway land

he said he was weary and needed a rest

the witch was reluctant

but she was not all wicked

she let him come, and rested

then she saw that he was wounded

she ignored the wound at first

she didn't want to deal with it

she was wounded herself

but then again, she was not all wicked

she could not ignore it

unbeknownst to him, she tended his wound

she did it from afar

afraid of the human touch

afraid of the emotional attachment

when days became weeks and weeks became months

the traveler still stayed in the land of oz

the witch became anxious and battling herself

she wanted him to leave for she preferred her solitude

yet every time she tried to banish him

she found that the words would not come out

each time when she wanted him to leave

she always found a reason for him to stay

this is where the plot thickens

this is where the twist happens

little did the witch know

when she tended his wounds

she lost her wickedness

little by little

then one day

the traveler came up to her

and told her that he was a prince from faraway land

he was there to end her curse

stripped off her wickedness

and made her his princess

he dressed her up in love

and took her to his castle

where they build their own little world

this is the part when i supposed to say

then they live happily ever after

but like i said

this is an ongoing fairy tale

the story still go beyond this little tale

the story did not end here

still much more to come

the story might not be all happy

but the story will be about a princess and a prince

for now

this is the end of the tale

how a wicked witch became a princess

swept away to the castle by a prince

and live in their own little world