dec 15/flashes

as i drove home, i've seen flashes of you

i smiled, as i remembered the way you smiled

it didn't bring me pain anymore

remembering you

for an obvious reason, it brought me joy

the pain has ceased, in a way

not because of someone new

because of acceptance

i accept that you left

i accept that you can't fight

have i wish for things to be different?

oh yes, i very much so

i wish you would take out your swords

and charged at the dragons like you did the first time

i wish you would scream to the world

how much i meant to you

but things are not what i wished for

and i've accepted that

i've understood

i've rested

now i smiled

as your image became clearer

as the time goes by

what does it means?

i don't know

but all i know, right now, i can picture you with a smile

and that... i can live with