Monday, February 5, 2018

cliche

there's a saying, if you hate what you do, quit...

hmmmm... when you find utopia, please let me know.

i know, it sounded like i'm bitter, but i'd like to think that i'm realist.  i mean, come on, yes i want to quit, but my bills are not going to quit.
do what you love, that's the cliche.  but come on, get real, in percentage, how many people are successful base on doing what they 'love'.

maybe i'm saying this because i'm trapped in a situation where i just have to literally dragged by rear behind every day to the place that i loathe.  but i can't quit.  that's not what adults do.  adults have responsibility, adults...face the music.

sure i'd much prefer be somewhere far away from here, delivering the current events to the world.  photographing images that would change the world.  if i was selfish, i would.  but i can't. i have my kids to think about now, i have family that i have to keep intact.  the choices are mine.  and yes i chose to stay.

i know it's never too late to catch your dreams (another cliche) but my dreams require great sacrifices.  and sometimes the answer is not as simple as quit whatever it is that's killing you inside.  most of the time the answer is to suck it up, man up (or in my case woman up) be an adult.  life sucks sometimes.  but it's life.  if it doesn't suck, then probably you don't have anything to look forward to.

right now, i just need another mantra to get me through this 'phase'.