jan 30/my last stand

custer had one...

and this is mine

my last stand

with this

i'm done....

i'm done...

i'm done...

*just wish i meant it...*

jan 29/the tale of two cities

when i was a kid, i always fancy myself as being really mobile. new york one day, detroit the next, houston then orlando, you know, all the good stuff. airport is my home away from home, and i live and breathe by lattes :)

oh hey.... i am living it today. i have an early flight to go to another city and be back in jakarta by 7 pm. yeah well, it's not new york, london, paris... it's jakarta-solo-jakarta but hey.... :) and my role isn't THAT important, but you know what, i feel soooo jet-set-y today :)

i was dead tired at the end of the day though, but hey, i'm a jetsetter baby!!!! :)

*don't steal my thunder now... :p*

jan 28/daydreaming me

i was sitting down in a meeting, being tantalized, for not having passion. it dawned on me, i just don't.

this is not what i'm passionate about. if people asked me, why do i do what i do for a living. i would just say one word. ninta. i have to do it for her. i mean, at this moment, my life seems fine. my mother is still alive and well. she still provides care for my family, but what happens when everything stops. i have to be able to provide for her needs. and this is the answer.

if i have it my way... i wouldn't be here. this is not it. but i don't have the luxury to do my way. i have the choice of course, but it has its consequences.

so as i sit over there, still being tantalized for not having passion. i pictured myself in a 3x4 office, full of windows, a computer for me to work on my latest project. and if you come over to my office, i'll greet you with a smile, and a cup of great coffee...

it's my daydream, and no it's not stupid, and yes, i'll work my ass off to achieve it...

jan 27/i choose love

it's been really quiet at the office. work-wise. seriously.... i mean, there are times we literally have nothing to do. some of us are reading, some sorting through our stuff, some... filling out her blog :p

so when deskiano called me (well he actually bbm-ed me) and ask me to cover for him, i was like, hell yeah dude :) because i would much rather be inside my playground, than stuck there in the office and play the next level of jojo fashion show :p

what i didn't realize was, the new schedule, will have me leaving the office for 5 hours... but hey, i didn't really gave it much thought. the truth is, this job is the one that defines me, i like to be known as an announcer rather than 9-5 urban planner. really... nothing i did in that place going to give me half the satisfaction i did when my pd called me and tell me that my call (or talk) was great. i could go to places with my 9-5... but being an announcer means so much more than travel to places, i love my job... and that's why i chose to skip 5 hours to love :)

jan 26/new york...i love you

dek tikki... :) she's my rock @ times. she's there when i need someone to cheer me up. and she didn't have to put on a concern face, and do heart to heart, it's not her. but she'll be there, just to accompany me, to cheer me up.

i have to do a very sad thing today, and she is willing to come along to 'hold my hand' as i did the thing. the same thing with pilas, kicking, screaming, rolling eyes, but she's there for me anyway. she might not agree on what i do, but she just stood by me, not putting on a smile, but for her to stand by me, is something i really appreciate.

so after that, we went for a little movie called 'new york i love you'. i love the seamless editing from the several stories that they have. only one story that i didn't get is the shia labeouf piece, but everything else... a pleasure to see it.

great movies, great company, not-so-great moments in my life. because tonight i decided to have enough... and to rest my arms... but hey...

jan 25/the greatest love

today, i have the pleasure to be touched by love again. not me directly though, but from what i see.

he is a tough guy. i tough husband. he was the breadwinner of the family. he is a typical javanese man, old school type. he needed to be served left and right. got his clothes laid out each morning by his wife, his breakfast ready on the table, his morning coffee and everything.

she is the personification of the perfect housewife. she took care of the house, took care of the children, she looked ever so beautiful for every occasion...

until that time, that he cheated on her. after all her devotion, he cheated on her...

but she forgave him. she did not forget, but she forgave him. she lives with his mistakes, she swallowed everything whole. she stood by him.

he had a stroke, and now he's half paralyzed. she has to tend to his every needs. she has to be there for him 24-7.

but looking at her, she is tired, but she still joked around with him. giving him kiss, and he's still smiles at her approvingly once in a while.

that is love people. i want to be as strong as her. she can brushed off the past, and being the perfect wife. i want to be the perfect wife too....

jan 24/his bday...

today is his bday....

the man i thought i would marry and have family with...

well for 6 years, i thought i would....the first two anyway

looking back, i mean, he gave me a lot!!! not only love, but also lessons in life. but i was too young when i met him. he was my first everything.... (boyfriend, first kiss...and everything that came along with it :p) and i REALLY honestly thought i was one man woman :p *grins*

well, today is his bday, no greetings for me, we are strangers since the moment we broke up. well, we've become strangers when we're together anyway. he never really took the effort to get to know me. well, that's my side of the story. you have to ask him for his. he'll probably tell you about my infidelity :p

but through this entry, i'd like to say, happy bday you... i'm sorry for how things turned up. i hope you're happy... i'll see you around

jan 23/put aside little things...

today, i learned a very valuable lesson.... life's too short to ponder on little things...

life's too short to ponder on why i didn't become a journalist like i dreamed about

life's too short to ponder whether i am going to make it to wikipedia or not

life's too short to ponder what kind of hair cut i'd be getting next

life's too short to ponder whether he really loved me, or he just wanted to get in my panties

life's too short to ponder about that huge zit the size of kansas

life's too short to ponder is the outfit i am wearing looked cheap

life's too short to ponder what would be my next toys

life's too short to ponder on that cute stilettos....

right now, i am only going to ponder about the future, the security of my family, my family health and welfare... and ninta's future

life's to short....

jan 22/me and pilas

i didn't even know her when i was in college... hell when my friend told me that this girl is going to occupy the wretched world, i was like... who the hell is she???

she turns out to be a great friend, and wonderful company, and a fun person indeed.

i don't know what i'd do in this wretched world of mine if i don't have her around. i'd probably gone bananas... or maybe i turn out into the typical wretched world citizen.... wait a minute, that would be a good thing right...i mean normal

well, normal's no good :)

so, having pilas around is a good thing for me. sure she slaps me relentlessly about how i behave in front of him, and how i put up with his antics, but she stood by me anyway. kicking, screaming, and rolling eyes, she stood by me. god knows how much i need a rock right now. and she is one of them.

and i hope i don't jinx our friendship because of this post :p

jan 21/the perfect gift

i always give the perfect gift to people i love. because i gave it a thought, and i don't hold back when it comes to people who has a lot of meaning in my life. i love seeing the smile on their faces when they opened the gift, it feels like i won the lottery :)

maybe that's what my friends don't get when i scrounged the town looking for the gift for him.

i've been pondering a lot on what to get him for his bday. part of it is because it's the first gift i've ever given him, and i don't know... it might be the last too.

so, no matter how much my friends been riding me, about how it's not worth whatever i spend on him. but you know what, i don't really care.

i just have to give him the perfect gift.

jan 20/fat and ugly

i know it's so superficial... but i do feel fat and ugly today. i'm sorry, i can't help it, it's just the way i felt about the day....

me, standing 10 pounds heavier than i was a year ago, and unkempt hair, ugh.... can't stand looking @ me today...

i'm sorry for being insensitive, and unthankful... but the whole purpose in this blog is for me to be honest, and today, with all honesty, i feel fat and ugly.

maybe tomorrow i'll feel better.... let's hope for that :)

jan 19/the roadtrip

we've been talking about taking a road trip... the 6 of us... not too far, just the town about 150 km southeast jakarta :) but, like most of our plans, we never really got around to take the trip... and yesterday, tragedy struck. indar lost her father. it's the first for us, the loss. knowing each other for over a year now, and this is the first huge tragedy that struck us.

indar father is to be buried in his hometown of sumedang. which is nearby bandung...

so, tragedy struck, and we took a road trip there.

me, pilas, ilham and iman... we have to leave tiara behind because she was taking her toefl test. and even though the reason for the trip was grief, but the trip itself was anything but. in the trip we filled in on each other lives (especially ilham's it's been a while).

with that... we are making vows, we'll go on a real road trip... when it doesn't have grief involved.... when... god knows when :)

jan 18/date with kresh

i got out early today... yaay...

and i took the time to go over to kresh's house.

when i got there, he was in a sour mood. he just woke up, and he wasn't happy. when he saw me, he looked at me with sleepy eyes, and called on him like i always do, my "hey baby" and "how's it going precious" still sleepy eyes.

so i took him in my arms, and realized, how big he had gotten now! i mean, when the first time i was in love with him he's like 2.1 kg, the smallest creature that ever stole my heart. and now he's like what??? 7.5 or 8 kg!!! kresh grown!!!!

and when it comes to bath time, his favorite time of the day, he is so cute. splashing around in his bathtub, and he'd get upset when we took him out of the water.

but the cutest thing happened when i was saying goodbye. he started to cry. omigod my heart just melt. i took him with me, and then saying my proper goodbye.

for now, he is the only men in my life. comes in a small package... but the only one that has my heart :)

jan 17/28 years ago....

i wouldn't know, i wasn't here yet... but it is the beginning of my being :)

28 years ago, my dad married my mom

the two people less likely to be together, but they got together until today.

like i always say, my dad is an artist, and my mom is a 'scientist'. her idea of 'fun' is gardening, while my dad's is going to poetry reading, meeting a lot of new people. my mom's a wallflower in a party, my father... well he's the life of the party.

well, two of the most unlikely people got together... 28 years now :)

everyday with them, is an adventure for me

jan 16/lessons of failure

i don't really like what they're teaching kids these days that everyone's a winner...

seriously, it's not how the world works. in the real world, you failed, you got rejected, you lose. so how do they deal with that if you never teach them how?!

see, i am not the sharpest tool in the shed, i was not the greatest athlete in the world, or the natural born violinist. i write nicely (at times) i can manage to put words into sentence, i took decent pictures but that's about it. in short, like i always say, i'm a geek. i was never the most valuable player in the team, i was picked last in gym class, never get to sing the solo (hell i think if i tried out for choir they'd rejected me anyway). but, you know what, rejections, failure, and lost made me interesting (borrowing this quote from ms. reese witherspoon). it made me stronger, and (i hope to god) wiser. at least it made me wittier (is there such words??!!) and it gave me ammunition for the real world.

so teach your kids to fail, let them feel rejected, let them KNOW those things exist. so they are prepared to face the world, so when it happens, big time, they are much less likely to blow up their brain.

so you got to teach your kids, it's okay to lose because you can gained much more from it than when you're winning. and tell them, if they came back from it, they'll achieve a higher limit :)

jan 15/reunion with an old friend :)

two years ago... when otong still have less than 10,000 km in his mileage, i was still 'green' behind the wheels... reckless back then (still am... :p) i meet this guy.

we got off the wrong feet. after all i charged in on him, and blamed it all on him.

and for two years, we haven't met again. i thought about him all the time though. after all, he was my first...

and today, we got a chance to meet again... and i'm glad we're on good terms :)

jan 14/uninspired

today, i woke up @ 10:30 am...

SERIOUSLY!!!!

i was cursing all kinds of profanity and rushed myself to the office

i've been feeling kinda low lately. i don't know why, my sleeping patterns had been off... which is unlikely for me for this time being.  i think it's all the dvd but no time to watch it :p

but hey, i promise, this is the last time... (i think i made that promise too two days ago =P)

jan 13/dinner out

it's been a while since i went out with my friends for dinner. well, i've ate out with pilas a lot, but not with the others so much. so we set out a date to eat out, it was tiara, pilas, iman, and me.

it's nice to catch up with whatever's going on in our lives, and planning a getaway trip.

it's kinda nice not always hanging out together, i mean, it gives us space and then when we meet up we have different perspective to share. it's not always sweet, but hey, we still have this bond with us.

we talk for hours, sometimes weird exchange glances from me and pilas, for the two of us are the one who hung out the most. and the revelation from iman that he is fat :P

it's nice to be together again... not too often though, because we might get bored of each other :p

jan 12/happy 2nd anniversary buriq & ujank

they are two souls that meant to find each other

started out as friends, and then it grew

i know it sounds like a cheezy chick flick

but that was their story

at first i had my doubts on ujank to take care of my cousin

after all, she is buriq, my partner in crime, the one that i depended on (too much @ times :p)

but he is the perfect match for her... seeing them together, made me want to meet my soulmate :)

happy 2nd anniversary you guys... i hope more years to come for both of you, all good things will come to you guys, and the little yous that came along, are lucky lucky kids to have a set of parents like both of you :)

jan 11/my rockstar boss

beware... this is a very serious office conversation... consider yourselves warned

my rockstar boss: (excited like a little boy who just pranked an elderly) hey ayu, have you heard of guns and roses

me: (baffled) excuse me sir what?

mrb: guns and roses

me: doing exactly what?

mrb: here, just see it (handing me his phone, i should've told him, he has the same plan as me, youtube-ing through the phone is not on the phone plans, but hey he's the boss)

me: (still baffled, and took the phone) still buffering

mrb: just wait, it's great

me: (still waiting)

and suddenly it appears... guns and roses singing rhoma irama "bergadang" and my rockstar boss was laughing his ass off...

seriously =P

jan 10/a time alone

i got to spend some time alone at the house, and i am watching some dvd...

the pick of the day is gilmore girls!! :)

omigod it brought up memories again. dean... omigod, who could not fall for dean... :) well me, personally, just love with jared padalecki.

it was the season when rory started college and became a freshman... this week, gotta be the week of reminisce... i remembered exactly when i knew i was accepted to college, all happy and stuff, until i met chemistry and physics :p but hey, i have the greatest time of my life in college. i met a lot of new characters, and i adjusted into a new rhythm.

10 years ago, yes boys and girls, i was a freshman 10 years ago. yeah time flies, yeah i'm getting old... oops, wiser =D

well, life goes on :)

jan 9/pi to the es to the e and gi :)

it's a special day this saturday is... it's the day i meet up with my college friends and reminiscence :)

it's our yearly camp out. so every year, we gather for a weekend camp out to welcome the new student... well we're welcoming them in our own way :)

but to me, it's not about the new students, it's about seeing familiar friendly faces. the faces i knew for almost ten years now. it is bittersweet though, being with college friends. it reminded me of yari, somewhat. but hey, it's the past... he's happy now i bet :) and i know we weren't meant to be.

anyway.... i got the chance to meet 25 bright new souls. kinda proud of them in a way, i mean coming out to camp out with a bunch of alumni, and we are not the nicest seniors on earth at times :) but hey, we're fun though. it brought up a lot of memories. for all 10 years, i've been to 4 camp outs, when i was a freshman (i hardly had fun at the time, but it's a never-ending topic of conversation of our class, because we had a lot of highlights and funny moments), when i was sophomore (because i have to be in the committee... gosh lemme tell you, it's MUCH more tiring than if you're a freshman, you got pushed around more when you're the committee), and then i never got to go when i was still in college, because my mom wouldn't let me. and finally i started going again in 2007 until this year, never missed a year. and thank god they are having a camp out nearby my house now, so i can just drive up there :)

being with my college friends gave me a lot of perspective. awaken my old dreams, and give me a lot of boost up. i want these kids to be proud to be geographer. i want these kids to know what kind of options do they have once they graduated.

and it's great meeting my classmates again. we always have that bond, some kind of brotherly-sisterly bond. and it was just great.

it was a wonderful weekend, i love my yearly camp out. once a year, it's a great time to hang out with familiar faces.

jan 8/beautiful like a rainbow

you with the sad eyes
don't be discouraged
i realize
it's hard to take courage
in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all
and the darkness inside you
can make you feel so small

but i see your true colors
shining through
i see your true colors
and thats why i love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful,
like a rainbow

show me a smile then,
don't be unhappy, can't remember
when i last saw you laughing
if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know i'll be there

this cindy lauper song is the song of the day for me. i love the glee cast's cover.

sadly, i just got the lyrics... i know, for all this time, i've never really paid attention to the lyrics. but once i did, wow!!!

i don't know, it got me through the day today. for a while now, i've been feeling low. i feel really hollow and empty, which what i've been feeling this past 7 months or so... i know, lame... whatever, this is how i feel, i'm sorry.

yes, i've been wearing happy and confident smile all this time. if you asked me whether i'm alright or not, i would say i'll live and i'll be okay. and i would try to put up this smile across my face, and put on my brave face.

wanna know the truth, i crumbled inside, and scared as hell. i hate it when i can't go to sleep, because in the wee hours, i have to deal with my pain. the pain i managed to burry deep in the daytime. because the demons come out at night. and they LOVE to play :)

but this song, listening to the lyrics, made me feel somewhat stronger. i feel like i have friends to cover me, to watch over me (which i actually do, but sometimes kinda fade into the background with my loneliness).

so, if you are lonely right now, just remember, you still have friends around you that would pick you up, and help you got through the day.

well if you don't, i'll be your friend... because everybody needs a hand to hold on to...

what's in store for twenty ten

no... it's a not a part of my project, i just want to post up this year's goal to you :)

first, i want to be a better sister for ndut. she deserves one, and i'm trying to be.

i also want to be a better daughter

i'm going to get a scholarship this year, it's a must, time is ticking

i have to get wilbur a brother, and maybe it's time to pass wilbur on to my sister, so she can start being a shutter freak too :)

let's get that gym membership shall we??? or maybe drag my ass to the jogging track, i'm not 17 anymore, i need to move my ass

there's more to explore in the world, get your gear on, we're going to travel all over!!!

write more, be more productive, be more passionate, be the person that i love, not this bitch i can't handle to stare more than 5 minutes

keep in touch with people, because you need them

get the business going... :) we're going to make it mbak!!! :)

let's rock this decade, this year is my year :)

jan 7/being a dumb blonde

i always have this fear, that people won't see me pass my face.

i've been told (even though i rarely believe it) that i look okay. and i found that as a gift and a curse. in high school, i've been known as the brain. i'm the geek who hangs out at the library on lunch time, i played violin, and go around quoting things out from books i read just for fun (but no, i don't read the dictionary :) ) i was the member of the in-the-know team (even though i rarely got the chance to answer things @ the actual game, but i do alright in the team practice. of course i'm not the smartest one in my school, but i do make my mark as one of the nerds.

then college happens. i'm tired of being ms. goody two shoes. unconsciously i chose to be a slacker. well, the thing that i didn't really put in my calculation when i chose to be a slacker is that people saw me as a looker. because all through my high school years i've never think myself as that way. so they didn't see a slacker, they saw a dumb blonde. see the difference???

slacker.... dumb blonde.... unmotivated underachiever.... dumb blonde....

*sigh* the plan to be a slacker backfired, because all people see now is this girl who looks easy in the eyes, but doesn't have much brain to fill the shoes, because if she does the world will be a perfect place.

whatevs... =D

i used to be scared of that status, but now, i don't really give a damn. hey, should you see me a dumb blonde, then be it. i don't need your approval to tell me that there's something going on up here. i KNOW i have something going on up there, i just don't show it to you. and i don't really mind being the dumb blonde, if it means i got to enjoy life and do the things that i am really passionate to do. i love being a dumb blonde, if it means i still have the time to write my thoughts down and a chance to explore the world.

yes sir, i might be a dumb blonde... but i'm just playing my role, because i have no intention on being you :)

jan 6/ row h seat 23

heck yeah!!!

it's official, i'm going to go and see immi live!!!! i got my ticket, i got my plane ticket, and off to see immi i go :)

to be honest, i've never really spend this much on any other artist but her, i think she is worth the money. i searched high and low in this country for her first cd before deciding to buy it online (which reminds me i have to ask maxie for my imogen's cd)

a good artist never really come around to indonesia that much, and when they do, i've never be able to get the cash to see them perform live. but now, yeah, i'm coming immi!!!!!

so wait for it, the full report on march 29th, immi live on stage, and me reporting for my 'everyday i'm 27'

jan 5/pencil bun

i have a friend in high school, her name is senada. she has a long blond hair, and she used to put it up in a bun, the cool thing is, she didn't use the regular scrunchies, she used pencil to put up her hair.

so ever since that, i've been wanting to put up my hair like her. alas my friend, i've never had the hair nor the skill to do that.

i envy her, and i really, REALLY want to be able to put my hair in a bun like she did...

and hey my friend, the day hath cometh :) and yes, now i have the length AND the skill to do that :)

now, as i type my hair is up in a pencil bun... ow well a pen bun, and loving it, i know it's geeky, but i love it :)

jan 4/makang ikang :)

lucy, pilas and i have lots of things in common, one of them is our passion for food :)

we just love to eat, the three of us, can order things that could feed 10 (i know it's exaggerating, especially now i'm trying to thin up *whatevs*)

well anyway, one of those days we can escape from our pen early, we spent it driving across sudirman to mall ambassador to get some fish :)

well, i was about to pick up a copy of something, but they didn't have it yet *dvd bajakan yeah!!* so heartbroken, i ate my way through my pain *lebaaaaaaaaaaayyyy*

manadoan (??) food, never disappoints... lucy and pilas, never dull moment...

jan 3/wak enung's bday bash and you had me at hello

i know that's two title on today's entry, but those two represent how i feel today.

today is wak enung's bday (don't ask how old she is, for all i know is she was around when the japanese was still invading our country...so, pretty old :) ) and we decided to throw her a bday bash. we went to her house and cook nasi kuning and everything. it was a fun time, i got to meet my favorite guy, he is more adorable every time i met him. the love of my life now, for real =)

family in my opinion is like candy... i mean it's great when you have one, but when you have too much, it makes you a bit sick :) so i think i have just about enough dose of family in this long weekend. and i just found out that kresh likes my bracelet too... i love kresh.

and that phrase "you had me at hello" is in my head all day long, and the beyonce's song "hello" is in my head too. i mean, to be honest, you didn't had me @ hello... you scared me @ hello... because your hello was "what was your screen name" but it stuck out. until this day it does. and i remember the way i feel and the way i react. i know i'm a snob, but i have my reasons. i've been stalked with annoying people before. and YES you were annoying at first. but for some reason, i miss to be annoyed by you. you know what i miss the most, fighting with you. stupid huh? but i miss fighting with you. i miss being annoyed by you. ow well...

anyway... you didn't have me at hello, no you didn't, but you had me... until now

jan 2/a blast to the past

going to another wedding.... :p

yeah there's another wedding going on, and it's one of my childhood friend from columbus. i never thought that she'd get married before me :) but hey, i never thought i would be a pns either, so life doesn't really work as it was previewed :p

the cool thing was to meet up with my childhood friends again, and see what they've become. it's been 10 years since i left columbus, and i've known these people probably for 15ish years. my goodness, we grew... a lot!!!

mutia is like 6 foot tall :) she is always pretty, and i'm glad she had a smile on her face this time :)

rahima...shrunk *shocked* :p i mean, she was taller than me when we were in columbus, and now, she's shorter than me.

sabrina, a chatterbox back then, but now... very quiet and reserved...

ikhsan... omigod, he grew!!! and a bit chubby... but still cute as a button

rijal, still the old rijal around there somewhere, didn't had much time to play around with him, but he's still the old rijal

amy, the bride... my god we grew so much!!! congrats, and i wish you all the best, with your romantic husband :)

time flies by, but hey one thing remains, we still have kids inside all of us :)

jan 1/a date with steven

i was about to write down my resolution for today's blog entry. but the day with steven, could not go without me writing down whatever happened between the two most talkative people in the country :p

my relationship with steven, is really indescribable. i mean, i think i need him in my life more than he needs me =) sometimes i feel bad for him, because i confide in him so much, without actually giving anything back. but hey, he still loves me no matter what. the cool thing is @ times we would finish each other sentence (crazy huh?!)

steven is one of the few people who would literally call me stupid to my face, or tell me that the man that i am going for is not worth the try, or call me bitch in regular basis (i call him insensitive prick @ times too, so we're pretty much even =p).

we talk about what happened to us in the past year in a half. he left for arizona for study, and i gotta say, i LOVE the new steven. i mean, the old steven, is a bit uptight (not too much though baby *somehow i feel his protest when he reads this*) but tries to be a laid back guy, talks a lot (he still does though), and easily excited. the new steven, is a laid back guy (without even trying) he's more cool, and i am in love with steven all over =)

and i managed to hold back my tears when i saw him, i mean, i told myself i didn't want to cry, because i always cried when i imagined meeting steven. but hey, i kept my cool, i didn't cry =P

i am so proud of him, and everything he has accomplished until now.

we sat in the overpriced coffee shop i love so much :p and talk and talk and talk... both of us got hungry, and steven had enough junks so we decided to drove down and found ourselves a nice soto kudus :)

it was unreal, really, to talk to him again and have him call me bitch on my face :) and i had a great time, as i always do with steven. i know friends like steven doesn't come along very often, and i do value him dearly in my life. and as you age, you really need friends who are honest. i mean back in the day, you need friends who are fun, but these day what i need is an honest friend

steven checking out landon pigg *i knew landon pigg before steven yaaayyyyy!!!*

dec 31/out with ndut

it's the last day of 2009, and it is also the day when i woke up late :) so i skipped work... yeah bad ass

i promised ndut to take her to watch avatar 3D, and yes, she has never seen a 3D movie. so i gotta break my promise to lucy, and took my kid sister to watch avatar 3D (but i'd totally go and watch it again with you though luce :p)

anyway, we started out the day with selot. selot is this road beside her high school, and it is filled with all good foods, and it is very known for its famous meatball noodle soup and es doger. you should've seen ndut's face lights up when i told her that we could go to selot for our late breakfast. priceless.

we had the es doger and meatball noodle soup, it was good. we talked a while, and she asked me a very personal question, and i answered it truthfully.

after that, we went to the movie to watch avatar 3D. it's fun, it's been a while that we went out only the two of us.

we bought nachos and ice cream on the way home, and became carpet potato... :)

so i skipped work in the last day of 2009... and spent the day with my dearest kid sister... :)

dec 30/the trip

i have this (for lack of better terms) clique, these girls that stuck together for a year now. i don't really know what attracts us to one another though. i mean, we're at the polar opposite of personality profile :) one's a perfect example of melancholy, another is sanguine, and there's the choleric, and of course a phlegmatic too. but for some reason, we bonded in some ways. we had our ups and downs. but at the end of the day, for some reason we always came back to each other.

when i went through my break up, they were there for me. giving me support i never thought i have. when our parents are sick, we tried to be there for one another. when one of us is sick, we also tried our hardest to be there. the thing is, we don't always have time to hang regularly, and we have another set of friends, but we're close...somewhat.

anyway, we've been talking about taking trips together. all talks no action :D

well, tiara and indar is taking a trip to thailand as i type and pilas and i had taken trip to lombok. but we haven't gone as a group, four of us. so with a year of planning, we're going to take a trip to one of the southeast asian countries. haven't been decided yet, but i'm the travel agent arranging everything. and i know that tiara probably wouldn't like the backpacking idea i have, but we're going to backpack =P

so i can't wait to arrange the itinerary and actually going for the trip... all four of us.