what i miss the most

i miss taking pictures...
i really do
it's been a while since i take wilbur out for a date, and it's been a while since i produce anything worth looking @

it's just that these days i couldn't care much about editing the pictures, i have to get back on my feet again!!!!!

but i'm going to get back on it again!!!!! *yaay* maybe i'll take my friend in that long awaited promised to go hunting... :)

wilbur..... i'm sorry baby i won't abandon you again!!! :)

hades in disguise

you told me you're pure
you told me there's nothing here
i don't know what to believe anymore
the dream you told me in neverland
or the bitter reality you just slapped me with

i have no one to blame but myself
i should've keep this heart as stone
cold hard marble
yet i let you melt it
and i let you in

i thought you're apollo
by god, you're no apollo
you're just hades in diguise

-090722-

i wish i can hate you

turning the other cheek

i have written about this topic about a year ago, and i still truly believe it is the best way to deal with your problem.

there's a teaching by jesus (and i'm not a christian, but i love this teaching) where he said just turn the other cheek.

most of my friends wouldn't understand, why turn the other cheek, but not fight back?  this is what i love about this, because you would teach them a lot more by that.  it doesn't mean that you're weak, really.  a close minded person would see that turning the other cheek is the act of a coward.  think about it, you're actually stronger than the person who hurt you.  because you're willing to be hurt, just to teach them a lesson.  anger cannot be returned with anger, compassion, is the best way to resolve everything.

so, if someone hurts you, and your human reaction is to hurt them back right?

try turning the other cheek, you'll feel so much better, and you've risen above that person, and the most important thing, you've taught them more than striking back.

try it, turn the other cheek....

dul...

i'd go to hell and back
i'd retrieve pieces from the atlantis
i'd take the world from atlas' shoulder
if it makes you happy

i'd swim the atlantic
i'd climb the himalaya
i'd go around sahara
just to be wherever you are

i would do anything that's humanely impossible
i would kill for you
i'd jump the hoop for you
i'd walk through fire for you

i will give up my life to be by your side
i would do anything
i'll sacrifice everything

so don't tell me to give up on you

090714

-i'm not giving up on us dul...-

when the pain stops

i wrote this back in 2000... or was it 1999, i forgot the verbatim, but i wrote it for phil mallinger :)
gosh i was so stupidly infatuated by him, i threw my dream away once i found out he would never care, which is NOT what i would do right now :)

well it's actually a song, anyone interested in writing it with me, lemme know :)


nothing in this world
will last forever
even when you said
that we'll be together

you said you love me
and that is forever
so can this could be
now we're not together

you've broken me
in more ways than one
i'll deal with it
later, when the pain stops

oh i feel for you
hands that replaced mine
trust me in this life
nothing last forever

he said he loves you
and it will be forever
just remember me
the brokenhearted wench


don't judge me... i was 17 when i wrote this :)

read roald dahl....

i know i'm probably the last person to give an advice about rising children :P but this one thing you gotta trust me on this one. let your children be children, and give them roald dahl!!! it'll be the one of the greatest gift you give your child.

he's a wonderful storyteller, i really wish i get to see him when he's alive. the way he conjured up his imaginary universes (mind you there are many) will give your children the ability to explore, to dream, and be kids.

the words that they'll read from his books, the worlds they'll enter as they passed through the pages, gosh!!!

they'll get to know matilda, the clever girl, so sweet, with lots of wits. or meet the twits, the strangest human beings you could ever encounter. or know how to identify evil witches :) or meet a boy who could talk to animals, or live in the amazing world of willy wonka!

it would be the greatest gift you could ever give your children, to introduce them to those larger than life characters.

the world that he created where children can triumph over grown-ups who are so close minded and forgot how beautiful alternate reality can be.

my mom didn't give me roald dahl, to be honest, i found dahl myself. i love the way he wrote his words, and until this day, i wish i could be half the writer he ever was. my first roald dahl book is 'the witches' and it left me in awe, i came back for more.

so guys, when you have children, give them roald dahl, let their imagination expand, i read roald dahl, and look how i turned out :)

the perfect weapon

i came to mount olympus
looking for apollo
for he is the god of knowledge and wisdom
i want him to cure this broken soul
for i have fallen for him

i found a god
beautiful and stunning
he understood me
instantly i trusted him, for all i know, he's apollo

i put my heart out
told him about the god
who broke my heart
i shared my sorrow, as i leaned on his shoulder

suddenly his true identity revealed
he's not apollo
he turned out to be hades
apollo is his true rival
apollo turns out to be the god who broke my heart

i shrugged
i'm not that into him
but hades is a perfect weapon
for a revenge on apollo

unspoken

i have ten thousands things to say to you
when i see your face
it's all evaporated

when i see your face
all i want to do is just to touch you
hold you
and make you promise not to let me go ever

you don't know
the length i'd go
to fight for you
i would shed this skin
i'd give my everything
if it means i would have you

but you asked me
to give up my dream
to let you go
i don't do that
i don't give up
i fight

i love you
i don't know any other way to feel anymore
you gave me that ability to love you
you never taught me to reverse it

so don't ask me to

the ball

i'm just a mortal
dressed up as a goddess
hoping to dance
among the gods

so i came up
with my best dress
looking my best
hoping to join the festivities

my dream was cut short
at the foot of mount olympus
when aphrodite approached me
and gave me the hard truth

"you might look like a goddess,
but you're only a mere mortal,
that cannot be changed,
by putting on a nice dress

"go home mortal,
you don't belong here,
who are you kidding,
you're not divine."

090711

friday... new day

i wrote that, i wish i believe that

this morning i'm still listening to pink's 'please don't leave me'
i want to sing that song in front of live audience, for some weird reason :) i got all my performance down, right now... all i have to do, is find a band :D and people who could stand my singing LOL

funny thing if you let your mind wander, sometimes it ended up in a place you don't want to be
and these days, i'm keeping myself busy, so my mind don't go wandering too far.

i have to go to my fortress of solitude, yeah tonight i think it'll be a good idea, go there and get started on my writing

keep your dream...i am

how do you kill your dream, really?

no one really able to do that, well except maybe for my dad, but he became cold unwanting person. so i wouldn't really recommend any of you to kill off your dream

that's why i'm still keeping mine. my dream has a name, and it's on every one of my silent wishes. i love him, even though i only knew him for like, i don't know four months, but he managed to make me monogamous (that's a big deal for me). during my time with him, not once have i ever turn my head when i see a guy. because i thank god i have him. everything i have ever wanted that came in an almost perfect package.

well, god is playing a big role too over here. since we call our god by different name :( big deal in this country, not really a big deal for me, a big deal for him, his family, and mine. see the odds??

but i'm still gathering my stuff to go to war, why?

did david just gave up when he found out how huge is golliath?
did noah backed off when people called him lunatic for building the arc?
did muhammad quit his teachings when it gets tough?

they didn't. they fought. true, the odds are stacking up against me, and i probably going to end up in more pain than what i have right now.

to hell with pain, i know god promised me one thing, and i know he kept that promise. i asked him, and he gave me a sign. now i just have to be patient, my time will come.

as i typed in these words, i am closing my eyes and saying my silent wish.

please god help me

finally... :)

i've been meaning to create my own blog for quite sometime, but haven't really get around to make one. i've been writing notes in facebook, i had blog on friendster. but i'm thinking of abandoning both, so i need a new outlet for my (hopefully) busy mind.

i'm nothing but an ordinary 26 going on 15 year old writer. i'm trying to give the world my thoughts, and i hope they respond and i hope they get it, and wishing against all hope you love my writing, and respond to my thoughts.

for those of you who had read my works before, i hope you keep reading, and i hope you find this outlet more interesting than the ones before :)

thanks for reading and thanks for caring

i hope you enjoy reading my thoughts and i hope you can take something out of my life :)